My world is crumbling down around me.  I'm scared beyond all belief. I don't know if I will every be the same again, I hurt constantly. I am tired of the pain. I am tired of the constant feelings of emptiness. 

I feel so incredibly alone and vacant. I feel like some piece of me is missing and I cannot figure out how to get it back. 

I am at loss for words. I grow more hopeless with each passing day, I weaken further and further. 

I fear nights alone, which is every night. I fear the hours I lay sleepless with my own thoughts swimming in my head, overflowing and unbearable. 

There is not a piece of hope I can hold onto and I am unable to successfully fool myself any longer.  

What is wrong with me. 

One year ago I felt precisely the opposite of my current state. 

How have I fallen so far so quickly. 

I am entirely broken.  My will to try is gone.  There is nothing left.